I've decided to move my blog to Wordpress after so many people keep recommending it. I'm going to leave this site up for a while yet but all of the previous posts have been moved to the new site.
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Friday, March 30, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
Writer's Block and Changes
I haven't been here in a while. Mostly it is because I seem to be suffering from some form of writer's block. I think about coming here and writing a few things, but then when I sit down it all just mysteriously evaporates. The main question has been "why?" and I can admit that even though more than a month has passed, I still don't have an answer. Parts of my life are in tall weeds right now - maybe I just don't like listening to myself complain about things - it is just too close to whining.
Lots of things have been changing though. I have a new job - FINALLY! The new position began three days ago and so far I think I am going to love the place. Right now I am drinking from the fire hose, trying to learn everything I need to and start contributing as quickly as I can. It really concerns me as I am a contractor and need to prove myself quickly. It should work out, but the next couple of weeks will probably be intense. It is a six month, right to hire position, so if they like me they will make me a full-time employee in six months. That would be sweet.
With the new job, my depression has begun lifting. I find myself singing more, and have played my instruments a few times lately. Overall, this is going to be a good thing I think. Church is still annoying (long story) and my wife's health has slipped a bit lately. That part of the puzzle is starting to look pretty dreary. But, it is nothing unexpected. And yet, now that it is getting here I am beginning to realize how hard these last stages are going to be.
The biggest downside to the new job is that while I'm a contractor I don't get any paid days off...even sick days. So, any hope of going to music festivals this year probably just went out the window. Maybe by Fall I can make it somewhere...that would be fun.
One of the biggest things I want to do as soon as the new job settles down is to begin working on "Plan B" and figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I really don't want to keep doing this kind of stuff the rest of my life, so I need to take some of those things rattling around in my head and see if I can make them real. That is exciting to think about but still pretty foggy.
All in all, life is great right now. And, speaking of work, I need to get showered before I'm late.....
Lots of things have been changing though. I have a new job - FINALLY! The new position began three days ago and so far I think I am going to love the place. Right now I am drinking from the fire hose, trying to learn everything I need to and start contributing as quickly as I can. It really concerns me as I am a contractor and need to prove myself quickly. It should work out, but the next couple of weeks will probably be intense. It is a six month, right to hire position, so if they like me they will make me a full-time employee in six months. That would be sweet.
With the new job, my depression has begun lifting. I find myself singing more, and have played my instruments a few times lately. Overall, this is going to be a good thing I think. Church is still annoying (long story) and my wife's health has slipped a bit lately. That part of the puzzle is starting to look pretty dreary. But, it is nothing unexpected. And yet, now that it is getting here I am beginning to realize how hard these last stages are going to be.
The biggest downside to the new job is that while I'm a contractor I don't get any paid days off...even sick days. So, any hope of going to music festivals this year probably just went out the window. Maybe by Fall I can make it somewhere...that would be fun.
One of the biggest things I want to do as soon as the new job settles down is to begin working on "Plan B" and figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I really don't want to keep doing this kind of stuff the rest of my life, so I need to take some of those things rattling around in my head and see if I can make them real. That is exciting to think about but still pretty foggy.
All in all, life is great right now. And, speaking of work, I need to get showered before I'm late.....
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Brrrrrrrr...............
All is well here although we had a huge ice storm last night with more expected tonight and tomorrow. We are all inside and snug and (thankfully) still have power and heat. Many in our area are out of both right now. The ice is beautiful but causing a lot of issues around the area.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Merry Christmas Everyone!
As I sit here typing this I am thinking through the past year, about all the stuff going on in my life and the challenges ahead. I am trying to clear away all of the junk and focus on the most wonderful gift ever given - Jesus. He is the reason for my life - the reason I have survived and is the keeper of any future I may have.
The devil has been at work today, nudging the human nature of many around me...and me as well. The attacks are subtle, but have been enough to throw everyone into a bit of a funk when we had all been so happy and looking forward to Christmas Eve and Day. So, what now? I'm not sure. But, I am convinced more than ever of the tremendous need for that baby born so long ago - the need for "God With Us" and the tremendous gift of peace and salvation. May our Lord be ever present with us, and His Spirit abide and rule with us day-by-day as we move into the coming year.
However you may be spending the holidays, I wish you love and peace and joy in the company of those you love and who love you.
Peace.
The devil has been at work today, nudging the human nature of many around me...and me as well. The attacks are subtle, but have been enough to throw everyone into a bit of a funk when we had all been so happy and looking forward to Christmas Eve and Day. So, what now? I'm not sure. But, I am convinced more than ever of the tremendous need for that baby born so long ago - the need for "God With Us" and the tremendous gift of peace and salvation. May our Lord be ever present with us, and His Spirit abide and rule with us day-by-day as we move into the coming year.
However you may be spending the holidays, I wish you love and peace and joy in the company of those you love and who love you.
Peace.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
25 years and counting....
Tuesday was my 25th wedding anniversary. I know the time passed, but I have no idea how or when. I mean, 25 years is like....huge. It is like an entire generation has passed. In the days following my anniversary I have thought a lot about all the water under the bridge. Life is kind of insidious this way....a minute here and a minute there and the next thing you know a ton of time has passed. What is the old saying...Life is what happens while you are making other plans? That is so very true.
Overall, our anniversary was uneventful as neither one of us are predisposed to big celebrations. The day slipped quietly past, sharing some cheesecake (my wife's favorite) and reminiscing a bit about the past. On my wedding day in 1981 I could not have even conceived of 25 years of marriage - it mentally wouldn't have been possible. And now, 25 years later, I'm still not sure I can. So, here is to looking ahead and to whatever God has in store for us... His grace has never failed us and I know in my heart that it never will.
Overall, our anniversary was uneventful as neither one of us are predisposed to big celebrations. The day slipped quietly past, sharing some cheesecake (my wife's favorite) and reminiscing a bit about the past. On my wedding day in 1981 I could not have even conceived of 25 years of marriage - it mentally wouldn't have been possible. And now, 25 years later, I'm still not sure I can. So, here is to looking ahead and to whatever God has in store for us... His grace has never failed us and I know in my heart that it never will.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Sunday evening blues...
These last few months have just flown past. It seems like just yesterday that it was Thanksgiving and Christmas was a month away. Now we are having discussions about what to buy our kids for Christmas and we need to hurry up and do it!
Lately I have been thinking about what my next steps are with music. It is one of those dreams I can't seem to fully grasp, but also can't seem to let go of. In talking with a friend the other day he made the statement that "I spend all day thinking about playing music and it consumes me. Then, when I get home, I take care of the family, play with my kids and the evening is gone and I haven't done anything with my music." I was surprised to hear him say that as I find myself feeling exactly that way. The book I am reading talks about the importance of carving out time for yourself, your art and to nurture the artist in you. It sounds great, but I sure haven't figured out how to do it. I do know that I want 2007 to be different - it needs to be different.
Reality is currently pressing in - and reality says I am about three video tapes behind editing my kids' concerts, and there are three Christmas concerts coming up in the next two weeks. I love the concerts, but keeping up is a chore sometimes. And yet, I so appreciate my kids and their efforts with their music. I want them to know that I support them and that their efforts mean something to me. And so, the beat goes on.
We did go to the St. Louis Symphony today and heard them perform "The Planets." Awesome - just wonderful music. Sometimes it is just wonderful to be awed by the music.
But, it is Sunday night and I have already had multiple emails on my blackberry from at least four of my co-workers who are working today (don't these people have a life?!) indicating that my day tomorrow is going to be nuts. Gotta love Sunday evenings....
Lately I have been thinking about what my next steps are with music. It is one of those dreams I can't seem to fully grasp, but also can't seem to let go of. In talking with a friend the other day he made the statement that "I spend all day thinking about playing music and it consumes me. Then, when I get home, I take care of the family, play with my kids and the evening is gone and I haven't done anything with my music." I was surprised to hear him say that as I find myself feeling exactly that way. The book I am reading talks about the importance of carving out time for yourself, your art and to nurture the artist in you. It sounds great, but I sure haven't figured out how to do it. I do know that I want 2007 to be different - it needs to be different.
Reality is currently pressing in - and reality says I am about three video tapes behind editing my kids' concerts, and there are three Christmas concerts coming up in the next two weeks. I love the concerts, but keeping up is a chore sometimes. And yet, I so appreciate my kids and their efforts with their music. I want them to know that I support them and that their efforts mean something to me. And so, the beat goes on.
We did go to the St. Louis Symphony today and heard them perform "The Planets." Awesome - just wonderful music. Sometimes it is just wonderful to be awed by the music.
But, it is Sunday night and I have already had multiple emails on my blackberry from at least four of my co-workers who are working today (don't these people have a life?!) indicating that my day tomorrow is going to be nuts. Gotta love Sunday evenings....
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Happy Thanksgiving!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! We had a quiet day at home just resting and recovering from all of the things going on lately. Hope everyone is happy and healthy and that you had a wonderful holiday.
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